When I'm feelin' it..

I’ve getting this feeling for a few days already...the thought of having someone romantic ahah is it too demanding?

Entah kenapa I’ve been thinking how nice to have someone to give u that (love and care) look, that sincere smile, sharing laughs (and love), to have someone who will hug me from behind when I’m doing house chores..Someone to kiss me on the forehead before I sleep, someone who gives me sincere hugs (I can feel it) whenever I am sad or share my happiness, someone u can poke and basically a pair of arms that I can turn to at every end of the day, arms that can release me from the outside world, arms that can make me feel secured and arms that can make me feel loved.

This feeling keeps me smiling actually, and makes me realised I have so much love (and etc) to give in return, if I meet that someone who can give me the above mentioned.(ni baru criteria romantic je, ada bnyk lagi crucial criterias that I value in makhluk yg dikatakan from Mars ini)

Good luck to Nana and Rizzo untuk acara larian mereka on Sunday. Selamat berhari minggu.

Sekian terima kasih.

**I've made up my mind, and my decision adalah muktamad! talian hayat tidak diperlukan. thanks for everything. hehe boleh nyanyi lagu I feel good! tenenenenenet ..haha

when the team name is 'the gutter hitters'

We will have a bowling tournament this evening. semua org diarahkan berpakaian casual dan mengikut warna team masing-masing. team saya kaler oren. and my team's name is "The Gutter Hitters". mengapa? sebab team saya sumer bad in bowling. maka sebab itulah akan hit the gutter only a.k.a longkang

agak kecewa kerana tidak berjaya mendapatkan ticket transformers dan terpaksa tundakan fabs gals nite

on the other note, I have to make a serious decision. mcm dah buat tapi bila di-counter semula jadi tambah stress pula.

alaaaa nak tgk transformerssssssssssssssssss

Got this email from my Boss:

I AM THANKFUL:

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF
LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE AND I HAVE A PURPOSEFUL LOVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.

when I can't live without my eyeliner

Giler lama x update.

Perkembangan:
1. Asyik stress
2. Stress
3. Stress lagi

Last movie I’ve watched: I love u man (boleh la citer ni, easy movie)

Buku yg berjaya habis dibaca: None

What I need the most:
1. Speakers! (note to ahmad, bukan speakers yg boleh dibeli di Low Yat Plaza okay! Speakers to SPEAK at my event) – Inilah punca stress paling utama
2. A new phone, woot woot! (Cuma mampu beli bulan depan hehe)

Saya juga perlu:
1. Mungkin buku motivasi
2. Beli kain utk buat baju raya
3. Cari langsir untuk bilik
4. Candles kegemaran dari ikea
5. Kasut C&K from nana

Agenda yg ditunggu:
1. Bawa parents pegi dinner
2. Nana & Rizhan to come over utk durian partayyy–yummy!!!!!
3. fabs gals nite out at 7atenine
4. Menonton movie baru yg paling utama Transformers- Revenge of the fallen, Ghosts of girlfriends past, duplicity, ice age 3, harry potter and the half blood prince..
5. Date with Ila at the curve

Saya masih perlu:
1. A hug-able person to be there for me
(harus memenuhi syarat no. 1 – hanya single or divorcee)

Kesimpulan:
1. Ada banyak agenda utk dilaksanakan to balance work and life. Family and frens make me happy, Cuma sekarang, kebahagiaan itu lebih bermakna sekiranya speakers saya dah cukup! Isk isk

**merujuk kepada tajuk entri ini, yes i can't live without my eyeliner! confidence level semua tumbang! huhu

When when when when when?

Saya sedang menghadapi satu tekanan, mungkin 2 mungkin 3. Mungkin lebih lagi tetapi saya harus meluahkan yg 1-2 ini sahaja

Kami menukar workstation sekali lagi...kali ke-5 dalam masa 16 bulan

Hmmmm tapi kali ini dgn tambahan – pintu belakang telah dikunci buat selamanya maka kalau nak ke toilet atau ciggie harus menggunakan laluan Utama a.k.a pintu hadapan (sila jgn lupakan tag anda setiap masa)

Utk pengetahuan semua, pintu belakang adalah sgt dekat dgn toilet, maka sekarang diibaratkan seperti harus membuat u-turn sekiranya hendak ke toilet

Aaaaah mcm mana kalau sakit perot x tahan?

**anyway agak efektif utk mengurangkan aktiviti kegemaran kerana takpegi ciggie breaks pun

On the other note, someone said that I thought I am so old and likes to think a lot, whilst what I should be doing is just to enjoy and have fun!...as a fact, It’s not that I haven’t reached that stage, although maybe not that long but I know getting my life-balanced is important. I still love music I still love clubbing (since I'm very bad in sports etc) but life need to be balanced

Deep down inside saya masih lagi syida yang dulu yg kelihatan seperti E.T yg naive yg bnyk meluangkan masa utk mendalami ekonomi rumahtangga...life has changed me to who I am today

But I think there’s no better time than now, to be firm on what I want and what I don’t want. Sekian terima kasih

When he becomes my buah hati..

Buah hati mummy..

I wanna steal some time talking abt this cute guy.

My current buah hati yang sorang ni. He is so adorable that you can fall in love with him at first sight. I can only spend time with him on Saturdays, where we will have a date and spend the day together.

Most of the days, he’s already at his home when I reached my house after work. For the past 2-days, he was still at my house when I got back. You know how it feels when a kid look at you and attached to you? It feels so gooood!!

Not having my own kid, plus haven’t found the love of my life yet, I know how it feels when how tired and stress you are at work, the moment you step in and saw him/her, your world suddenly stops and you gain back all the energy just to love him/her. When you hug him/her, all your sorrows just went off without you realise it.

And this guy, although I didn’t get to spend more time with him, he knows I love him. After my miscarriage at 5 months back in 2006, I have not been close to any babies, kids..Just to stop the thought that how nice it would be if I have my own daughter (Al-Fatihah to Sumaya)..Despite, when my sister first got Adam, I was keeping my distance because it resembles the thought that Sumaya would be the same age as Adam. I know I know its kuasa Tuhan and He knows what’s best for me, I have to let go and redha.

Living my life now, back to square one..although I have to be honest that I do feel lonely sometime, or when I just need a big bear hug each day, at least I have Adam – kena pinjam from my sister hehe

Thanks Adam for being mummy’s cute lil sweetheart!

when im happy+tired+wondering etc

been feeling lazy/ give-up/ fed-up lately..kejap tu ok, but most of the time, fed-up...i think i should just ignore everything/ everyone yang seangkatan dgnnya.

and I let songs to express my feelings.

craig david - walking away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie,
too many sleepless nightsnot mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

I am in Singapore tonite for my event. Finishing my opening slides for tomorrow morning.
Done shopping and I bought Adam two pairs of handsome shoes!

happy and thrilled of my event tomorrow. Big crowd of 60+ delegates! phewwwit!
i watched that he's just not that into u movie - very good movie plus good company..and I bought the book. Lurve it!

benci bila mixed feelings mcm ni. bosan!

When I wish 5.30 comes way faaaaaaaaaster!

confessions of a shopaholic is awesome!!!!!! managed to watch it last Friday with Aish and Ila. Show starts at 5pm but we came in a biiit late...funny funny from beginning to end! we were laughing our heart out and it is such a great start for the weekend! definitely will get the dvd as well. Next movie i wanna watch is http://www.hesjustnotthatintoyoumovie.com/ - saw the ad and the movie have jen aniston, ben affleck, drew barrymore, jen connelly, scarlett johansson ++...awww must watch! maybe i shud get the book as well!

**reminder to syidotz, buku Lipstick jungle yg dibeli 3 minggu lepas masih belum disentuh lagi!

bogged down with work each day and alhamdulillah my IA event is doing very good! I was listening to this song while driving back yesterday..kinda like it.

Fly On The Wall

You don't understand what it is
That makes me tick, but you wish you did
You always second guess wonderin'I say yes
but you just lose out every time

If you only knew what I talked about
When I'm with my friends just hangin' out
Then you'd have the inside scoop
On what to say, what to do
That way when you play the game
Baby, you can never lose

Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

You'd love to know the things I do
When I'm with my friends and not with you
You always second guess,
wonderin'If there's other guys I'm flirtin' with
You should know by now

If you were my boyfriend, I'd be true to you
If I make a promise, I'm comin' through
Don't you wish that you could
See me every second of the day
That way you would have no doubt
That baby I would never change

Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

A little communication
Well, that will go a long way
You're getting misinformation
Too much she say, he say
And what I say is

Come a little closer
And what I'm gonna say is
Don't ya, don't ya
Don't ya, don't ya
Wish you were a?
HeyDon't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

It's Thursday
usually today would be officemates and me sports-bar-nite-out
but no mood lately so I think im waiting for 530 to come, pack my stuff and go home!

lately mmg balik awal, spend time with dody yg masih demam
and get a good beauty sleep hehe
but belum lagi try tips from Hanis- tabur bedak dekat bantal so keesokkan harinya rambut wangi dan x berminyak
and I noticed that my skin is getting lil bit dryyyyy
arrrrrrrgh harus betul2 pay attention to my skin now!
wrinkles?! aaaaaaaaaaaa

**can' t wait to meet Steph a.k.a Bubbles on Sat, Blossom I miss you!!