F.R.U.S.T

Hmmmmmmm im having a major frustration. It’s all about my hair.

From loooonnnnng hair, I cut it short after my surgery.
Since my hair is wavy, I found it very hard to blow/ iron it nicely after shampoo
So everynite I will be reluctant to wash my hair sbb malas nak blow/iron

Came to one point when my short hair ini diikat, which ekor ayam looks better (i ironed my front hair only)
i need abt an hour to make the whole hair look nice sampai tgn semua lenguh and mengurangkan waktu tidur selama sejam

so I thought of rebonding my hair
This is not the first time
I know everytime i did it mum said “u lost yr soft looks”
But i still do it again and again (hard-headed, remember?)

I was thinking and thinking and came to a justification where it will be very practical since I dont have to blow/iron my hair myself or to saloon anymore
Save time, save budget
Smart tak?

And so I did

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT

This time the result isn’t really good like last few times
Sebab rambut pendek kah?
Kenapa rambut jadi kejung macam penyapu?????????
Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love,
copper-broom-haired woman

isk isk

When I won the BooBie Prizeeeee

On saturday....

Woke up at 9 sbb nak pegi zoo pukul 10am. Sarapan mee jawa, soto dan meehun sup. Adam dah smp, eh sama pulak theme all in white tops and jeans..cool!

Seperti biasa adam x bagi sesiapa duduk depan dgn dia (in the car)
Jadi semua org harus duduk di belakang

Yg comelnya, dia ckp dekat abah baik2 dan sopan “tuk, sit here la pls” sambil tunjuk seat belakang. Adam ni baru pandai ‘sit here’ je...’sit there’ belum ajar lagi so duduk mana pun sit here jugak

The first animal that he saw was the giraffe...terus dia panjat sikit sbb nak tgk giraffe dgn lebih dekat...tapi 10 minit kemudian dia masih xnak bergerak dari tgk giraffe
Dah 15minit

Aduuuh then pujukla dia utk tinggalkan giraffe2 tersebut dia kata “mummy, i want giraffe la, i want that giraffe”

Alamak mcm mana la mummy nak beli giraffe and nak simpan kat mana la pulak
So setiap stop nak kena pujuk dia to move to the next animal
Kalau tak habis satu zoo dia nak beli

Overall agak penat mengejar dia ke sana sini, naughty jugak Adam Effendi nih..degil betul! (hmmm boleh tak nak salahkan dia je knowing that mummy dia keras kepala jugak?)

Petang met ila at times square..utk kali yg kedua, sesat lagi after exit dari parking times square. Hp pulak out of battery...ntah ke mana sesat pun smp sekarang masih x boleh kenalpasti
Pengajaran – lepas ni pegi times square naik monorail ok!

Oh lupa nak update pasal bowling...sempena menghormati nama kumpulan iaitu ‘The Gutter Hitters’, maka ini lah yg berlaku:

(berikut adalah email dari Big Boss saya)

We hope everybody had a good time yesterday.

The results:

Best Team: Red Martini – Caroline, Sangeeta, Choy Yin, Mac
And this team wins 6 free games and dinner afterwards to the value of RM 250

Worst Team: The Gutter Hitters – Anu, Syida, Aaron, Shyam
Boobie Prize, 4 free games and needs to play when Red Martini play to get some tips – packet of crisps each provided after play and if the team reaches a collective score of 233+ (just 1 point off their top score!)

Heheheh BOOBIE PRIZE???? Apakah? Clear explanation kan?
Famous sekejap nama di announced dapat boobie prize

Heheheheh waktu tournament itu kitorang ni siap ada sesi ‘freestyle’ ..anda boleh menggelek kan bola bowling anda sesedap rasa..kebelakang, depan , sebelah tgn atau kedua2 belah tgn ikut suka hati hahaha

I had fun I would say...Cuma taktahu pulak mmg paling corot smp dapat boobie prize- aiya kena main lagi!!!!!!!! But my team mates are cool!

Hari ahad pulak..masak Ramly burger beserta mushroom soup dan roti bakar for breakfast..kemudian mengemas wardrobe, vacuum rumah sebelum tgk hari dah hujan maka cepat2 tidur dgn dody ...best woo...bgn pukul 4 apabila tgk umi memasak pulut dan abah membeli durian musang..nice ok. Sgt kenyang

Then met mazni at wmaju and yakking until 10 sebelum pulang, makan durian lagi dan tidur!

When I'm feelin' it..

I’ve getting this feeling for a few days already...the thought of having someone romantic ahah is it too demanding?

Entah kenapa I’ve been thinking how nice to have someone to give u that (love and care) look, that sincere smile, sharing laughs (and love), to have someone who will hug me from behind when I’m doing house chores..Someone to kiss me on the forehead before I sleep, someone who gives me sincere hugs (I can feel it) whenever I am sad or share my happiness, someone u can poke and basically a pair of arms that I can turn to at every end of the day, arms that can release me from the outside world, arms that can make me feel secured and arms that can make me feel loved.

This feeling keeps me smiling actually, and makes me realised I have so much love (and etc) to give in return, if I meet that someone who can give me the above mentioned.(ni baru criteria romantic je, ada bnyk lagi crucial criterias that I value in makhluk yg dikatakan from Mars ini)

Good luck to Nana and Rizzo untuk acara larian mereka on Sunday. Selamat berhari minggu.

Sekian terima kasih.

**I've made up my mind, and my decision adalah muktamad! talian hayat tidak diperlukan. thanks for everything. hehe boleh nyanyi lagu I feel good! tenenenenenet ..haha

when the team name is 'the gutter hitters'

We will have a bowling tournament this evening. semua org diarahkan berpakaian casual dan mengikut warna team masing-masing. team saya kaler oren. and my team's name is "The Gutter Hitters". mengapa? sebab team saya sumer bad in bowling. maka sebab itulah akan hit the gutter only a.k.a longkang

agak kecewa kerana tidak berjaya mendapatkan ticket transformers dan terpaksa tundakan fabs gals nite

on the other note, I have to make a serious decision. mcm dah buat tapi bila di-counter semula jadi tambah stress pula.

alaaaa nak tgk transformerssssssssssssssssss

Got this email from my Boss:

I AM THANKFUL:

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF
LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE AND I HAVE A PURPOSEFUL LOVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.

when I can't live without my eyeliner

Giler lama x update.

Perkembangan:
1. Asyik stress
2. Stress
3. Stress lagi

Last movie I’ve watched: I love u man (boleh la citer ni, easy movie)

Buku yg berjaya habis dibaca: None

What I need the most:
1. Speakers! (note to ahmad, bukan speakers yg boleh dibeli di Low Yat Plaza okay! Speakers to SPEAK at my event) – Inilah punca stress paling utama
2. A new phone, woot woot! (Cuma mampu beli bulan depan hehe)

Saya juga perlu:
1. Mungkin buku motivasi
2. Beli kain utk buat baju raya
3. Cari langsir untuk bilik
4. Candles kegemaran dari ikea
5. Kasut C&K from nana

Agenda yg ditunggu:
1. Bawa parents pegi dinner
2. Nana & Rizhan to come over utk durian partayyy–yummy!!!!!
3. fabs gals nite out at 7atenine
4. Menonton movie baru yg paling utama Transformers- Revenge of the fallen, Ghosts of girlfriends past, duplicity, ice age 3, harry potter and the half blood prince..
5. Date with Ila at the curve

Saya masih perlu:
1. A hug-able person to be there for me
(harus memenuhi syarat no. 1 – hanya single or divorcee)

Kesimpulan:
1. Ada banyak agenda utk dilaksanakan to balance work and life. Family and frens make me happy, Cuma sekarang, kebahagiaan itu lebih bermakna sekiranya speakers saya dah cukup! Isk isk

**merujuk kepada tajuk entri ini, yes i can't live without my eyeliner! confidence level semua tumbang! huhu

When when when when when?

Saya sedang menghadapi satu tekanan, mungkin 2 mungkin 3. Mungkin lebih lagi tetapi saya harus meluahkan yg 1-2 ini sahaja

Kami menukar workstation sekali lagi...kali ke-5 dalam masa 16 bulan

Hmmmm tapi kali ini dgn tambahan – pintu belakang telah dikunci buat selamanya maka kalau nak ke toilet atau ciggie harus menggunakan laluan Utama a.k.a pintu hadapan (sila jgn lupakan tag anda setiap masa)

Utk pengetahuan semua, pintu belakang adalah sgt dekat dgn toilet, maka sekarang diibaratkan seperti harus membuat u-turn sekiranya hendak ke toilet

Aaaaah mcm mana kalau sakit perot x tahan?

**anyway agak efektif utk mengurangkan aktiviti kegemaran kerana takpegi ciggie breaks pun

On the other note, someone said that I thought I am so old and likes to think a lot, whilst what I should be doing is just to enjoy and have fun!...as a fact, It’s not that I haven’t reached that stage, although maybe not that long but I know getting my life-balanced is important. I still love music I still love clubbing (since I'm very bad in sports etc) but life need to be balanced

Deep down inside saya masih lagi syida yang dulu yg kelihatan seperti E.T yg naive yg bnyk meluangkan masa utk mendalami ekonomi rumahtangga...life has changed me to who I am today

But I think there’s no better time than now, to be firm on what I want and what I don’t want. Sekian terima kasih

When he becomes my buah hati..

Buah hati mummy..

I wanna steal some time talking abt this cute guy.

My current buah hati yang sorang ni. He is so adorable that you can fall in love with him at first sight. I can only spend time with him on Saturdays, where we will have a date and spend the day together.

Most of the days, he’s already at his home when I reached my house after work. For the past 2-days, he was still at my house when I got back. You know how it feels when a kid look at you and attached to you? It feels so gooood!!

Not having my own kid, plus haven’t found the love of my life yet, I know how it feels when how tired and stress you are at work, the moment you step in and saw him/her, your world suddenly stops and you gain back all the energy just to love him/her. When you hug him/her, all your sorrows just went off without you realise it.

And this guy, although I didn’t get to spend more time with him, he knows I love him. After my miscarriage at 5 months back in 2006, I have not been close to any babies, kids..Just to stop the thought that how nice it would be if I have my own daughter (Al-Fatihah to Sumaya)..Despite, when my sister first got Adam, I was keeping my distance because it resembles the thought that Sumaya would be the same age as Adam. I know I know its kuasa Tuhan and He knows what’s best for me, I have to let go and redha.

Living my life now, back to square one..although I have to be honest that I do feel lonely sometime, or when I just need a big bear hug each day, at least I have Adam – kena pinjam from my sister hehe

Thanks Adam for being mummy’s cute lil sweetheart!