me - updates

Feels like I haven’t been updating the diary since forever! Hehe
It’s been a major restructuring going on in my life
I was too depressed of work, till it gets into my nerves badly
I didn’t say there’s a job without stress
But come to a point, I was asking myself whether I am happy?
Since right now my priority is towards my work, If I am giving my everything for it, is it worth it?
Enuff said, I know I need to make my decision..It has to start somewhere
One month walking this line, I’ve learn ALOT
And still much more to go

And tonite, I am grateful to say that I’ve made the best decision, and now is the time for me to boost my part
Having the full adrenaline and drive to do my best
On that part, Alhamdulillah
Well thats about work

Personal life, I would say God is testing me in many many many ways, that I always have to be VERY strong
Heartache? Phewwwww, been burnt...storms coming my way etc
Tough life? Hehe
Sgt bersyukur I am still standing strong over the storm
Resilient seems to be overly rated
I know to break/ hurt someone’s heart is damn easy
Then what I must do?
Take care of my own heart! Selfish? Been giving ways too much that it hurts myself in the end
Hahaha becoming heartless?
Susah sbb I am a person full of emotions, and full of love

But when I set my heart to be free, I found myself, I found happiness
Alhamdulillah, thank you Tuhan for always giving this hamba of Yours as many chances to find her path..
This ramadhan and syawal gonna be a purely good one!

**went for a business trip to Myanmar, learn alot about the people and the culture there..very interesting I would say. Had a good time there and lookin out for more!
**x sabar tggu baju raya siap! heheheheheh

When I let it be love..

Since I am still in romantic mood, flipping through my old cds and found this old cd of best males r&b songs year 2004

and this song catch my heart and keep playing in my mind. Here's the song by Dante Thomas -Let it be love

Let’s spend the weekend
just you and me babe
We'll take no phone calls
no company
Cause tonight is a special ride
and we owe it to each other to talk
Oohhh about our feelingsand giving love a try
What an emotional night
Now it’s time to face the little things
that should in time be in our lives
and I don’t mind letting ya know...

Let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
baby let it be love
let it be love
ohhh baby let it be love
let it be lovelet it be all I imagined it be
hoping you found all you wanted in me
girl let’s make it rightbaby let it be love
let it be love (love, love,love... let it be love)

Honey I'm trying to make it work but
you keep on saying you'vebeen hurt
and it said how
to you expect to move forward when you live in the past
Ohhh why are you keeping me on the outside?
You do but you dont know why (oh why)
do you wanna fall in love at all
Will you decide if you'll be mine
and I still hold on to the thought
Let it be love

Let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
Baby let it be lovelet it be love
Baby let it be love
Let it be youlet it be me
we'll found our wayyou will see (girl you will see)
You're everything (you're everything)
I'm dreaming of (I'm dreaming of)
You're everything (you're everything)
I want in love (I want in love)
And I still hold on to the thought

let it be love let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right baby let it be love
let it be love let it be lovelet it be love
Girl you know that I just can’t live another day
without you holding you loving you kissing you
Here's what I'm gonna do
Let it be love...yeah yeah yeah yeah
Let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
baby let it be love
Let it be love...

**awwww so romantic!

Another blissful weekend

A kids-park date with Adam

Relaxing at home on Saturday, brought Adam out to a park nearby. It was so hot and after like 40 minutes, I tried to drag him off the park by offering him stuff ..

“Adam, let’s go buy Milo?”
“I don’t want”
“Let’s go buy soya beaaaaan”
“I don’t want”
“Let’s go buy ice-cream?”
“Mummy I don’t waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant”

Geeeee my one and only nephew ni so stubborn! Mummy dia dah kepanasan. Ahah! I got an idea

“Adam let’s go buy Mc Donald’s? “
“Ok mummy let’s go!”

Heheheheh kids nowadayssssssssss, kena bribe dgn Mc Donald's baru nak balik - nak ajak buy donuts but so malas to drive

**pic shows dia buat muka sbb mummy keep saying let's go and he keeps saying no! hehe

Managed to get him Sid from Ice-age – Happy Meal then we adjourned to home sweet home.
But he was like, “are we going home?”
Hmmm faham x puas main la tu
“yes, we go home and play with Tuk ok?”

Lepas tu everytime Tuk dia nak tidor habis dia picked Tuk’s nose hehehe

Sunday

I’ve realised for the past 3 weekends, I have been eating durian, past 2 weeks, my mum been cooking pulut to eat with it

So I told them no more durian for this weekendla...suddenly when I opened the door, there were 4 durians in front of my house door..I was like “heyyyyy” rupanya nenek (family friend a.k.a neighbour) baru balik dari dusun durian dia, so dia hantar ke rumah but dah lewat semua dah tidor, so dia letak depan pintu saja

Heh apa lagi, durian breakfast la!

Went to Fizah’s wedding reception and Nelayan Titiwangsa and it was so grand, managed to meet other ex schoolmates as well. Hmmm most of them dah beranak pinak pun

On the other note, been asking myself lotsa questions..I am very very resilient to anything. (at one time I got very rebellious) then I realised I need to restructure myself (from sgt ok jadi x ok and now harus moderate)

But the resilient part, It’s in my DNA jadi susah sgt to change..org buat la jahat or not treating me right pun I stillllll can be there..kalau worklife tu when I know I really cannot take it to I will do something (after cuba bertahan selama mungkin)

But personal wise – susah! Maybe instead of being resilient I have to start doing everything right? I am naughty I admit, for things that are tolerable or acceptable (to me) although it is wrong, saya buat juga

So maybe I should try to do everything right from now..plus have to be strict and knowing I am so worth to be treated well.(does that sounds too demanding?) wah big effort nih! Hmmm ok I will do it moderately and stage by stage la, not too drastic. Hehehehe angan2 mat jenin ke?

*dah habis tgk all dvds I bought - obsessed, table for three and night at the museum 2...and again and again watching my all-time-fav-movie-that-can-always-keep-my-spirit-flyhigh-thoughtful-and-happy :SATC the movie

F.R.U.S.T

Hmmmmmmm im having a major frustration. It’s all about my hair.

From loooonnnnng hair, I cut it short after my surgery.
Since my hair is wavy, I found it very hard to blow/ iron it nicely after shampoo
So everynite I will be reluctant to wash my hair sbb malas nak blow/iron

Came to one point when my short hair ini diikat, which ekor ayam looks better (i ironed my front hair only)
i need abt an hour to make the whole hair look nice sampai tgn semua lenguh and mengurangkan waktu tidur selama sejam

so I thought of rebonding my hair
This is not the first time
I know everytime i did it mum said “u lost yr soft looks”
But i still do it again and again (hard-headed, remember?)

I was thinking and thinking and came to a justification where it will be very practical since I dont have to blow/iron my hair myself or to saloon anymore
Save time, save budget
Smart tak?

And so I did

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT

This time the result isn’t really good like last few times
Sebab rambut pendek kah?
Kenapa rambut jadi kejung macam penyapu?????????
Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love,
copper-broom-haired woman

isk isk

When I won the BooBie Prizeeeee

On saturday....

Woke up at 9 sbb nak pegi zoo pukul 10am. Sarapan mee jawa, soto dan meehun sup. Adam dah smp, eh sama pulak theme all in white tops and jeans..cool!

Seperti biasa adam x bagi sesiapa duduk depan dgn dia (in the car)
Jadi semua org harus duduk di belakang

Yg comelnya, dia ckp dekat abah baik2 dan sopan “tuk, sit here la pls” sambil tunjuk seat belakang. Adam ni baru pandai ‘sit here’ je...’sit there’ belum ajar lagi so duduk mana pun sit here jugak

The first animal that he saw was the giraffe...terus dia panjat sikit sbb nak tgk giraffe dgn lebih dekat...tapi 10 minit kemudian dia masih xnak bergerak dari tgk giraffe
Dah 15minit

Aduuuh then pujukla dia utk tinggalkan giraffe2 tersebut dia kata “mummy, i want giraffe la, i want that giraffe”

Alamak mcm mana la mummy nak beli giraffe and nak simpan kat mana la pulak
So setiap stop nak kena pujuk dia to move to the next animal
Kalau tak habis satu zoo dia nak beli

Overall agak penat mengejar dia ke sana sini, naughty jugak Adam Effendi nih..degil betul! (hmmm boleh tak nak salahkan dia je knowing that mummy dia keras kepala jugak?)

Petang met ila at times square..utk kali yg kedua, sesat lagi after exit dari parking times square. Hp pulak out of battery...ntah ke mana sesat pun smp sekarang masih x boleh kenalpasti
Pengajaran – lepas ni pegi times square naik monorail ok!

Oh lupa nak update pasal bowling...sempena menghormati nama kumpulan iaitu ‘The Gutter Hitters’, maka ini lah yg berlaku:

(berikut adalah email dari Big Boss saya)

We hope everybody had a good time yesterday.

The results:

Best Team: Red Martini – Caroline, Sangeeta, Choy Yin, Mac
And this team wins 6 free games and dinner afterwards to the value of RM 250

Worst Team: The Gutter Hitters – Anu, Syida, Aaron, Shyam
Boobie Prize, 4 free games and needs to play when Red Martini play to get some tips – packet of crisps each provided after play and if the team reaches a collective score of 233+ (just 1 point off their top score!)

Heheheh BOOBIE PRIZE???? Apakah? Clear explanation kan?
Famous sekejap nama di announced dapat boobie prize

Heheheheh waktu tournament itu kitorang ni siap ada sesi ‘freestyle’ ..anda boleh menggelek kan bola bowling anda sesedap rasa..kebelakang, depan , sebelah tgn atau kedua2 belah tgn ikut suka hati hahaha

I had fun I would say...Cuma taktahu pulak mmg paling corot smp dapat boobie prize- aiya kena main lagi!!!!!!!! But my team mates are cool!

Hari ahad pulak..masak Ramly burger beserta mushroom soup dan roti bakar for breakfast..kemudian mengemas wardrobe, vacuum rumah sebelum tgk hari dah hujan maka cepat2 tidur dgn dody ...best woo...bgn pukul 4 apabila tgk umi memasak pulut dan abah membeli durian musang..nice ok. Sgt kenyang

Then met mazni at wmaju and yakking until 10 sebelum pulang, makan durian lagi dan tidur!

When I'm feelin' it..

I’ve getting this feeling for a few days already...the thought of having someone romantic ahah is it too demanding?

Entah kenapa I’ve been thinking how nice to have someone to give u that (love and care) look, that sincere smile, sharing laughs (and love), to have someone who will hug me from behind when I’m doing house chores..Someone to kiss me on the forehead before I sleep, someone who gives me sincere hugs (I can feel it) whenever I am sad or share my happiness, someone u can poke and basically a pair of arms that I can turn to at every end of the day, arms that can release me from the outside world, arms that can make me feel secured and arms that can make me feel loved.

This feeling keeps me smiling actually, and makes me realised I have so much love (and etc) to give in return, if I meet that someone who can give me the above mentioned.(ni baru criteria romantic je, ada bnyk lagi crucial criterias that I value in makhluk yg dikatakan from Mars ini)

Good luck to Nana and Rizzo untuk acara larian mereka on Sunday. Selamat berhari minggu.

Sekian terima kasih.

**I've made up my mind, and my decision adalah muktamad! talian hayat tidak diperlukan. thanks for everything. hehe boleh nyanyi lagu I feel good! tenenenenenet ..haha

when the team name is 'the gutter hitters'

We will have a bowling tournament this evening. semua org diarahkan berpakaian casual dan mengikut warna team masing-masing. team saya kaler oren. and my team's name is "The Gutter Hitters". mengapa? sebab team saya sumer bad in bowling. maka sebab itulah akan hit the gutter only a.k.a longkang

agak kecewa kerana tidak berjaya mendapatkan ticket transformers dan terpaksa tundakan fabs gals nite

on the other note, I have to make a serious decision. mcm dah buat tapi bila di-counter semula jadi tambah stress pula.

alaaaa nak tgk transformerssssssssssssssssss

Got this email from my Boss:

I AM THANKFUL:

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF
LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE AND I HAVE A PURPOSEFUL LOVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.