When my heart feels like crying and laughing at the same time..

I am just another normal human being. As strong as I am, I have my down times too. Some issues that is beyond your reach is very hard to be managed. I know challenges/ obstacles or whatever you call it are normal and everyone will have their shares. And I know it would not stop coming your way. But the cases that I’ve been having are MERELY RUBBISH! I am tired. I am really tired.

Last few days I was talking to Nana about the feeling that couples have (I used to have) – no matter what happen to you each day, as long as you come back to the arms of your loved ones..you know things will get better and by sleeping in each other’s arms, you will gain the energy to face the world again the next day.

Agree with me?

**gambar di sebelah diambil secara x sengaja sewaktu kami tension di ofis lama. sorry Hana!

When this cute guy really sweeps off my feet each time

This CUTEEEEEEE guy..I seldom meet him as he rarely comes to my house on weekends, and by the time I reached home daily he went back to his home already.

But everytime he got the chance to see me he will call me every 3 seconds and trying his best to catch my attention.

He even try his best to copy my way of sitting, standing and try to make a conversation which I hardly understands.

Everytime I gave him something he will say “thanksssssssssssssss”

Everytime he ate something tasty he will say “niceee”

Maybe spending too much time with his momma, he likes to play with kitchen utensils...ok maybe chef in the making huh

Ok I miss him dearly!!

Adaaaaaaaaaaaammm (or his other nick name – Dadam – because when u asked him what is his name he & will answer - Dadam)....tggu mummy balik k!

When my heart tells me I should meet her Part One

Talked to her lastnite, I know I missed her..she was there for me throughout my campus life
She knows how clumsy I am, she knows how forgetful I am..
She laughed out loud when I fell down then only she helped me

During our final year, her closet was full of MY clothes
She pretty much knows everything abt me!
She called me monyet, nenek and dory
And I call her beruk!
Hang on there girl, I am coming

When she finally picked the date

Bubbles gona get married!!!!!!!!

Next year! Hehe

When I think about L.O.V.E

When I was struggling my own probs, when I got it all settled..I’ve been listening and experiencing other people probs too

End of the day, where is the love?

Aren’t those people whom I know were madly in love when they got married?

I may not be the right person who can comment because mine one also went down the drain
But as I can see some cases that are happening now, the causes are purely small thing..Plus they have kids to be considered.

But this thing keep lingering in my mind…is marriage now is just like another relationship?

When she told us “Don’t tell me you’ll try your best, tell me you will DO it”

Last few weeks, my boss told the whole team. All of us will be put under pressure to assure our projects done 2 weeks earlier than schedule!

Hari2 rasa nak terjun bangunan, hari2 rasa nak berhenti kerja.

Smoking berkotak2…skip lunch, pegi keje balik rumah…other than workstuff, life terhenti seketika

End of it, all of us really managed to do it! It is proven. WHEN WE HAVE NO CHOICE! Dan itu telah menjadi benchmark kepada team yg lain…maka nya team yg lain telah merasa seperti mahu membunuh kami…haha hmmmm actually I feel good abt it…and I think my boss will start to cut short all future projects..aduhai

Feel good tu mmg la sungguh menyeronokkan..full satisfaction!

Tapi sggp ke setiap kali project starts life ku terhenti??

Berapa kotak rokok pulak? Betul2 terjun bangunan?

Taktahu nak senyum ke nak nangissssssss

**Oooops yeah I know I looked fat!

When I really meant what I’ve said

I am starting to feel numb. I think it’s good that lately I’ve been fighting for myself. When I know I didn’t do anything wrong and I take precautions to few things before it hurts myself. At this very moment, I am feeling verrrry numb.

I’m sure we like it when someone says he/she misses you…but lately this lovey dovey things doesn’t get into me easily like it used to be. Funny I’ve been telling J those things I’ve never told him before. I was a bit more reserved when I was with him. Maybe I really got my lesson learned this time. But it’s cool! And those feelings which I had before, I would not say I lost it, but it doesn’t bother me so much.

We are really cool buddies now! And when he says he misses me, the feelings were never the same as when we were together. And when I was still bitter about it. Now it gets better and saya tidak emo langsung.

Now I actually gets very comfy for a fact that I don’t belong to anyone (except for my family la of courseeee) and no one gets to tell me what I should do with my nails, my hair, my lip gloss color etc ect which was making my self esteem went down the drain.

And as simple as when I decided not to do something but people keep asking me to do it, I don’t allow it to happen and I’ve been listening to myself! (Announcement: statement ini tidak ada kena mengena langsung dgn kerja saya)

It should be a good sign!

When I remembered I have it but I can’t find it

Since I was still studying..prob ni adalah salah satu major prob which if difikirkan semula sgtlah x wajar berlaku

But I heard other sisters do have this prob too. This is really really getting on my nerves nowadays…someone entered my room daily and do –take whatever she wants like nobody’s business

Naik sungguh darah ni bila nak pakai baju tu tapi tak dijumpai and takkan lah bonda ku yg pakai kan? Takkanla adam yg kecit itu nak pakai

There’s nothing wrong with asking for permission aite? I tried to make it fair by asking her for some things as well but she said she will give but I never get it. When I locked my closet (dahla terasa cam sharing room kat campus sebab kena kunci almari) …ada pulak yg kecit hati and I will get the silent treatment.hey it’s my stuff! I don’t care! Tapi masalah nya kalau laundry basket ku pun di punggah dan bonda pegi jemur bajuku dan ketika itu boleh dirembat…takkan I need a closet for my laundry pulak?? Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

And what the heck are they looking for by checking what I have in my drawers daily? If I locked my door nanti kena buang daerah pulak! Isk isk

Adil kah?

Ciggie timeeee!

When my to-get list goes on and on

Since I always have notes on what I need to get so that I won’t forget, here goes the list again:

1. Single shelf in black for my room
2. Purple paint
3. New duvet
4. Cable for my hp
5. New cushions for my bed
6. Stock of scented candles

The rest of the list are more to what I want hehe
hmmm I also need to do something with my hair ! giler bosan dah tgk muka nih

Some said I should cut my hair short, but the prob is, when I cut my hair then I’ll see a lot of gorjas girls with long hair… nanti menyesal and lama pulak nak tggu panjang balik

Maybe kena highlight new color..

When the party theme is Magical Masquerade – Part One

Still have sufficient time to decide what to wear. Bit excited for this. And prolly will look for the outfit later this week.

But, we have to perform an old version of “it’s raining men” where the ladies will be singing and the guys will be doing the catwalk. Hmmmmm me and my transvestite voice? Aduh

They said we can mime because Ms. Gorjas sings very well. But still funny rite? ouch!

Bit of work related issue:
I am currently doing topic generation for future projects..hmmmmmm

**Ms. Gorjas is a gorgeous gal who works in my office.

When assumption becomes the main thing you believe

Last few weeks a friend asked me can you describe assume or assumptions…then I replied - unfair judgement, or judgement based on what you see on the surface and what u called as your own instinct (damn I HATE this word nowadays!)

How to deal with people who keep on assuming and believe that only what they assume is TRUE and nothing but the TRUTH

Dan berbuih la mulut anda menerangkan apa sebenarnya plus extra confessions utk memberi lebih pemahaman kepada mereka, statements itu either akan dimanipulate atau sesi itu bagai x pernah berlaku kerana mereka tetap dgn pendapat mereka or should I say stupid assumptions.
Bencikan? Throughout my whole life I have identified two traits that I hate the most in a person:

1. Ones who assume 24-7
2. Compulsive liars which often live in denial

Ni lagi teruk dari womaniser okay! Prob is, semua ni adalah masalah attitude dan tidak boleh diubah atau di improve sekiranya tuan punya badan tidak mahu mengubahnya.

Dan masalah saya ialah saya harus menghadapi org2 yg mempunyai dua2 traits ini setiap hari. Bertepatan dgn kerja saya yg bnyk menggunakan -ing words, golongan ini adalah sgt irritating, annoying, sickening, maddening, infuriating and sgt lah pain-in-the ass-ing

Bagaimanakah?