me - updates

Feels like I haven’t been updating the diary since forever! Hehe
It’s been a major restructuring going on in my life
I was too depressed of work, till it gets into my nerves badly
I didn’t say there’s a job without stress
But come to a point, I was asking myself whether I am happy?
Since right now my priority is towards my work, If I am giving my everything for it, is it worth it?
Enuff said, I know I need to make my decision..It has to start somewhere
One month walking this line, I’ve learn ALOT
And still much more to go

And tonite, I am grateful to say that I’ve made the best decision, and now is the time for me to boost my part
Having the full adrenaline and drive to do my best
On that part, Alhamdulillah
Well thats about work

Personal life, I would say God is testing me in many many many ways, that I always have to be VERY strong
Heartache? Phewwwww, been burnt...storms coming my way etc
Tough life? Hehe
Sgt bersyukur I am still standing strong over the storm
Resilient seems to be overly rated
I know to break/ hurt someone’s heart is damn easy
Then what I must do?
Take care of my own heart! Selfish? Been giving ways too much that it hurts myself in the end
Hahaha becoming heartless?
Susah sbb I am a person full of emotions, and full of love

But when I set my heart to be free, I found myself, I found happiness
Alhamdulillah, thank you Tuhan for always giving this hamba of Yours as many chances to find her path..
This ramadhan and syawal gonna be a purely good one!

**went for a business trip to Myanmar, learn alot about the people and the culture there..very interesting I would say. Had a good time there and lookin out for more!
**x sabar tggu baju raya siap! heheheheheh

When I let it be love..

Since I am still in romantic mood, flipping through my old cds and found this old cd of best males r&b songs year 2004

and this song catch my heart and keep playing in my mind. Here's the song by Dante Thomas -Let it be love

Let’s spend the weekend
just you and me babe
We'll take no phone calls
no company
Cause tonight is a special ride
and we owe it to each other to talk
Oohhh about our feelingsand giving love a try
What an emotional night
Now it’s time to face the little things
that should in time be in our lives
and I don’t mind letting ya know...

Let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
baby let it be love
let it be love
ohhh baby let it be love
let it be lovelet it be all I imagined it be
hoping you found all you wanted in me
girl let’s make it rightbaby let it be love
let it be love (love, love,love... let it be love)

Honey I'm trying to make it work but
you keep on saying you'vebeen hurt
and it said how
to you expect to move forward when you live in the past
Ohhh why are you keeping me on the outside?
You do but you dont know why (oh why)
do you wanna fall in love at all
Will you decide if you'll be mine
and I still hold on to the thought
Let it be love

Let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
Baby let it be lovelet it be love
Baby let it be love
Let it be youlet it be me
we'll found our wayyou will see (girl you will see)
You're everything (you're everything)
I'm dreaming of (I'm dreaming of)
You're everything (you're everything)
I want in love (I want in love)
And I still hold on to the thought

let it be love let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
Hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right baby let it be love
let it be love let it be lovelet it be love
Girl you know that I just can’t live another day
without you holding you loving you kissing you
Here's what I'm gonna do
Let it be love...yeah yeah yeah yeah
Let it be love
let it be all I imagined it be
hoping you found all you wanted in me
Girl let’s make it right
baby let it be love
Let it be love...

**awwww so romantic!

Another blissful weekend

A kids-park date with Adam

Relaxing at home on Saturday, brought Adam out to a park nearby. It was so hot and after like 40 minutes, I tried to drag him off the park by offering him stuff ..

“Adam, let’s go buy Milo?”
“I don’t want”
“Let’s go buy soya beaaaaan”
“I don’t want”
“Let’s go buy ice-cream?”
“Mummy I don’t waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant”

Geeeee my one and only nephew ni so stubborn! Mummy dia dah kepanasan. Ahah! I got an idea

“Adam let’s go buy Mc Donald’s? “
“Ok mummy let’s go!”

Heheheheh kids nowadayssssssssss, kena bribe dgn Mc Donald's baru nak balik - nak ajak buy donuts but so malas to drive

**pic shows dia buat muka sbb mummy keep saying let's go and he keeps saying no! hehe

Managed to get him Sid from Ice-age – Happy Meal then we adjourned to home sweet home.
But he was like, “are we going home?”
Hmmm faham x puas main la tu
“yes, we go home and play with Tuk ok?”

Lepas tu everytime Tuk dia nak tidor habis dia picked Tuk’s nose hehehe

Sunday

I’ve realised for the past 3 weekends, I have been eating durian, past 2 weeks, my mum been cooking pulut to eat with it

So I told them no more durian for this weekendla...suddenly when I opened the door, there were 4 durians in front of my house door..I was like “heyyyyy” rupanya nenek (family friend a.k.a neighbour) baru balik dari dusun durian dia, so dia hantar ke rumah but dah lewat semua dah tidor, so dia letak depan pintu saja

Heh apa lagi, durian breakfast la!

Went to Fizah’s wedding reception and Nelayan Titiwangsa and it was so grand, managed to meet other ex schoolmates as well. Hmmm most of them dah beranak pinak pun

On the other note, been asking myself lotsa questions..I am very very resilient to anything. (at one time I got very rebellious) then I realised I need to restructure myself (from sgt ok jadi x ok and now harus moderate)

But the resilient part, It’s in my DNA jadi susah sgt to change..org buat la jahat or not treating me right pun I stillllll can be there..kalau worklife tu when I know I really cannot take it to I will do something (after cuba bertahan selama mungkin)

But personal wise – susah! Maybe instead of being resilient I have to start doing everything right? I am naughty I admit, for things that are tolerable or acceptable (to me) although it is wrong, saya buat juga

So maybe I should try to do everything right from now..plus have to be strict and knowing I am so worth to be treated well.(does that sounds too demanding?) wah big effort nih! Hmmm ok I will do it moderately and stage by stage la, not too drastic. Hehehehe angan2 mat jenin ke?

*dah habis tgk all dvds I bought - obsessed, table for three and night at the museum 2...and again and again watching my all-time-fav-movie-that-can-always-keep-my-spirit-flyhigh-thoughtful-and-happy :SATC the movie

F.R.U.S.T

Hmmmmmmm im having a major frustration. It’s all about my hair.

From loooonnnnng hair, I cut it short after my surgery.
Since my hair is wavy, I found it very hard to blow/ iron it nicely after shampoo
So everynite I will be reluctant to wash my hair sbb malas nak blow/iron

Came to one point when my short hair ini diikat, which ekor ayam looks better (i ironed my front hair only)
i need abt an hour to make the whole hair look nice sampai tgn semua lenguh and mengurangkan waktu tidur selama sejam

so I thought of rebonding my hair
This is not the first time
I know everytime i did it mum said “u lost yr soft looks”
But i still do it again and again (hard-headed, remember?)

I was thinking and thinking and came to a justification where it will be very practical since I dont have to blow/iron my hair myself or to saloon anymore
Save time, save budget
Smart tak?

And so I did

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT

This time the result isn’t really good like last few times
Sebab rambut pendek kah?
Kenapa rambut jadi kejung macam penyapu?????????
Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love,
copper-broom-haired woman

isk isk

When I won the BooBie Prizeeeee

On saturday....

Woke up at 9 sbb nak pegi zoo pukul 10am. Sarapan mee jawa, soto dan meehun sup. Adam dah smp, eh sama pulak theme all in white tops and jeans..cool!

Seperti biasa adam x bagi sesiapa duduk depan dgn dia (in the car)
Jadi semua org harus duduk di belakang

Yg comelnya, dia ckp dekat abah baik2 dan sopan “tuk, sit here la pls” sambil tunjuk seat belakang. Adam ni baru pandai ‘sit here’ je...’sit there’ belum ajar lagi so duduk mana pun sit here jugak

The first animal that he saw was the giraffe...terus dia panjat sikit sbb nak tgk giraffe dgn lebih dekat...tapi 10 minit kemudian dia masih xnak bergerak dari tgk giraffe
Dah 15minit

Aduuuh then pujukla dia utk tinggalkan giraffe2 tersebut dia kata “mummy, i want giraffe la, i want that giraffe”

Alamak mcm mana la mummy nak beli giraffe and nak simpan kat mana la pulak
So setiap stop nak kena pujuk dia to move to the next animal
Kalau tak habis satu zoo dia nak beli

Overall agak penat mengejar dia ke sana sini, naughty jugak Adam Effendi nih..degil betul! (hmmm boleh tak nak salahkan dia je knowing that mummy dia keras kepala jugak?)

Petang met ila at times square..utk kali yg kedua, sesat lagi after exit dari parking times square. Hp pulak out of battery...ntah ke mana sesat pun smp sekarang masih x boleh kenalpasti
Pengajaran – lepas ni pegi times square naik monorail ok!

Oh lupa nak update pasal bowling...sempena menghormati nama kumpulan iaitu ‘The Gutter Hitters’, maka ini lah yg berlaku:

(berikut adalah email dari Big Boss saya)

We hope everybody had a good time yesterday.

The results:

Best Team: Red Martini – Caroline, Sangeeta, Choy Yin, Mac
And this team wins 6 free games and dinner afterwards to the value of RM 250

Worst Team: The Gutter Hitters – Anu, Syida, Aaron, Shyam
Boobie Prize, 4 free games and needs to play when Red Martini play to get some tips – packet of crisps each provided after play and if the team reaches a collective score of 233+ (just 1 point off their top score!)

Heheheh BOOBIE PRIZE???? Apakah? Clear explanation kan?
Famous sekejap nama di announced dapat boobie prize

Heheheheh waktu tournament itu kitorang ni siap ada sesi ‘freestyle’ ..anda boleh menggelek kan bola bowling anda sesedap rasa..kebelakang, depan , sebelah tgn atau kedua2 belah tgn ikut suka hati hahaha

I had fun I would say...Cuma taktahu pulak mmg paling corot smp dapat boobie prize- aiya kena main lagi!!!!!!!! But my team mates are cool!

Hari ahad pulak..masak Ramly burger beserta mushroom soup dan roti bakar for breakfast..kemudian mengemas wardrobe, vacuum rumah sebelum tgk hari dah hujan maka cepat2 tidur dgn dody ...best woo...bgn pukul 4 apabila tgk umi memasak pulut dan abah membeli durian musang..nice ok. Sgt kenyang

Then met mazni at wmaju and yakking until 10 sebelum pulang, makan durian lagi dan tidur!

When I'm feelin' it..

I’ve getting this feeling for a few days already...the thought of having someone romantic ahah is it too demanding?

Entah kenapa I’ve been thinking how nice to have someone to give u that (love and care) look, that sincere smile, sharing laughs (and love), to have someone who will hug me from behind when I’m doing house chores..Someone to kiss me on the forehead before I sleep, someone who gives me sincere hugs (I can feel it) whenever I am sad or share my happiness, someone u can poke and basically a pair of arms that I can turn to at every end of the day, arms that can release me from the outside world, arms that can make me feel secured and arms that can make me feel loved.

This feeling keeps me smiling actually, and makes me realised I have so much love (and etc) to give in return, if I meet that someone who can give me the above mentioned.(ni baru criteria romantic je, ada bnyk lagi crucial criterias that I value in makhluk yg dikatakan from Mars ini)

Good luck to Nana and Rizzo untuk acara larian mereka on Sunday. Selamat berhari minggu.

Sekian terima kasih.

**I've made up my mind, and my decision adalah muktamad! talian hayat tidak diperlukan. thanks for everything. hehe boleh nyanyi lagu I feel good! tenenenenenet ..haha

when the team name is 'the gutter hitters'

We will have a bowling tournament this evening. semua org diarahkan berpakaian casual dan mengikut warna team masing-masing. team saya kaler oren. and my team's name is "The Gutter Hitters". mengapa? sebab team saya sumer bad in bowling. maka sebab itulah akan hit the gutter only a.k.a longkang

agak kecewa kerana tidak berjaya mendapatkan ticket transformers dan terpaksa tundakan fabs gals nite

on the other note, I have to make a serious decision. mcm dah buat tapi bila di-counter semula jadi tambah stress pula.

alaaaa nak tgk transformerssssssssssssssssss

Got this email from my Boss:

I AM THANKFUL:

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF
LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE AND I HAVE A PURPOSEFUL LOVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.

when I can't live without my eyeliner

Giler lama x update.

Perkembangan:
1. Asyik stress
2. Stress
3. Stress lagi

Last movie I’ve watched: I love u man (boleh la citer ni, easy movie)

Buku yg berjaya habis dibaca: None

What I need the most:
1. Speakers! (note to ahmad, bukan speakers yg boleh dibeli di Low Yat Plaza okay! Speakers to SPEAK at my event) – Inilah punca stress paling utama
2. A new phone, woot woot! (Cuma mampu beli bulan depan hehe)

Saya juga perlu:
1. Mungkin buku motivasi
2. Beli kain utk buat baju raya
3. Cari langsir untuk bilik
4. Candles kegemaran dari ikea
5. Kasut C&K from nana

Agenda yg ditunggu:
1. Bawa parents pegi dinner
2. Nana & Rizhan to come over utk durian partayyy–yummy!!!!!
3. fabs gals nite out at 7atenine
4. Menonton movie baru yg paling utama Transformers- Revenge of the fallen, Ghosts of girlfriends past, duplicity, ice age 3, harry potter and the half blood prince..
5. Date with Ila at the curve

Saya masih perlu:
1. A hug-able person to be there for me
(harus memenuhi syarat no. 1 – hanya single or divorcee)

Kesimpulan:
1. Ada banyak agenda utk dilaksanakan to balance work and life. Family and frens make me happy, Cuma sekarang, kebahagiaan itu lebih bermakna sekiranya speakers saya dah cukup! Isk isk

**merujuk kepada tajuk entri ini, yes i can't live without my eyeliner! confidence level semua tumbang! huhu

When when when when when?

Saya sedang menghadapi satu tekanan, mungkin 2 mungkin 3. Mungkin lebih lagi tetapi saya harus meluahkan yg 1-2 ini sahaja

Kami menukar workstation sekali lagi...kali ke-5 dalam masa 16 bulan

Hmmmm tapi kali ini dgn tambahan – pintu belakang telah dikunci buat selamanya maka kalau nak ke toilet atau ciggie harus menggunakan laluan Utama a.k.a pintu hadapan (sila jgn lupakan tag anda setiap masa)

Utk pengetahuan semua, pintu belakang adalah sgt dekat dgn toilet, maka sekarang diibaratkan seperti harus membuat u-turn sekiranya hendak ke toilet

Aaaaah mcm mana kalau sakit perot x tahan?

**anyway agak efektif utk mengurangkan aktiviti kegemaran kerana takpegi ciggie breaks pun

On the other note, someone said that I thought I am so old and likes to think a lot, whilst what I should be doing is just to enjoy and have fun!...as a fact, It’s not that I haven’t reached that stage, although maybe not that long but I know getting my life-balanced is important. I still love music I still love clubbing (since I'm very bad in sports etc) but life need to be balanced

Deep down inside saya masih lagi syida yang dulu yg kelihatan seperti E.T yg naive yg bnyk meluangkan masa utk mendalami ekonomi rumahtangga...life has changed me to who I am today

But I think there’s no better time than now, to be firm on what I want and what I don’t want. Sekian terima kasih

When he becomes my buah hati..

Buah hati mummy..

I wanna steal some time talking abt this cute guy.

My current buah hati yang sorang ni. He is so adorable that you can fall in love with him at first sight. I can only spend time with him on Saturdays, where we will have a date and spend the day together.

Most of the days, he’s already at his home when I reached my house after work. For the past 2-days, he was still at my house when I got back. You know how it feels when a kid look at you and attached to you? It feels so gooood!!

Not having my own kid, plus haven’t found the love of my life yet, I know how it feels when how tired and stress you are at work, the moment you step in and saw him/her, your world suddenly stops and you gain back all the energy just to love him/her. When you hug him/her, all your sorrows just went off without you realise it.

And this guy, although I didn’t get to spend more time with him, he knows I love him. After my miscarriage at 5 months back in 2006, I have not been close to any babies, kids..Just to stop the thought that how nice it would be if I have my own daughter (Al-Fatihah to Sumaya)..Despite, when my sister first got Adam, I was keeping my distance because it resembles the thought that Sumaya would be the same age as Adam. I know I know its kuasa Tuhan and He knows what’s best for me, I have to let go and redha.

Living my life now, back to square one..although I have to be honest that I do feel lonely sometime, or when I just need a big bear hug each day, at least I have Adam – kena pinjam from my sister hehe

Thanks Adam for being mummy’s cute lil sweetheart!

when im happy+tired+wondering etc

been feeling lazy/ give-up/ fed-up lately..kejap tu ok, but most of the time, fed-up...i think i should just ignore everything/ everyone yang seangkatan dgnnya.

and I let songs to express my feelings.

craig david - walking away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie,
too many sleepless nightsnot mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

I am in Singapore tonite for my event. Finishing my opening slides for tomorrow morning.
Done shopping and I bought Adam two pairs of handsome shoes!

happy and thrilled of my event tomorrow. Big crowd of 60+ delegates! phewwwit!
i watched that he's just not that into u movie - very good movie plus good company..and I bought the book. Lurve it!

benci bila mixed feelings mcm ni. bosan!

When I wish 5.30 comes way faaaaaaaaaster!

confessions of a shopaholic is awesome!!!!!! managed to watch it last Friday with Aish and Ila. Show starts at 5pm but we came in a biiit late...funny funny from beginning to end! we were laughing our heart out and it is such a great start for the weekend! definitely will get the dvd as well. Next movie i wanna watch is http://www.hesjustnotthatintoyoumovie.com/ - saw the ad and the movie have jen aniston, ben affleck, drew barrymore, jen connelly, scarlett johansson ++...awww must watch! maybe i shud get the book as well!

**reminder to syidotz, buku Lipstick jungle yg dibeli 3 minggu lepas masih belum disentuh lagi!

bogged down with work each day and alhamdulillah my IA event is doing very good! I was listening to this song while driving back yesterday..kinda like it.

Fly On The Wall

You don't understand what it is
That makes me tick, but you wish you did
You always second guess wonderin'I say yes
but you just lose out every time

If you only knew what I talked about
When I'm with my friends just hangin' out
Then you'd have the inside scoop
On what to say, what to do
That way when you play the game
Baby, you can never lose

Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

You'd love to know the things I do
When I'm with my friends and not with you
You always second guess,
wonderin'If there's other guys I'm flirtin' with
You should know by now

If you were my boyfriend, I'd be true to you
If I make a promise, I'm comin' through
Don't you wish that you could
See me every second of the day
That way you would have no doubt
That baby I would never change

Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

A little communication
Well, that will go a long way
You're getting misinformation
Too much she say, he say
And what I say is

Come a little closer
And what I'm gonna say is
Don't ya, don't ya
Don't ya, don't ya
Wish you were a?
HeyDon't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall?
All my precious secrets, yeah, you'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?

It's Thursday
usually today would be officemates and me sports-bar-nite-out
but no mood lately so I think im waiting for 530 to come, pack my stuff and go home!

lately mmg balik awal, spend time with dody yg masih demam
and get a good beauty sleep hehe
but belum lagi try tips from Hanis- tabur bedak dekat bantal so keesokkan harinya rambut wangi dan x berminyak
and I noticed that my skin is getting lil bit dryyyyy
arrrrrrrgh harus betul2 pay attention to my skin now!
wrinkles?! aaaaaaaaaaaa

**can' t wait to meet Steph a.k.a Bubbles on Sat, Blossom I miss you!!

When I can’t wait for the clock to show me it’s 5pm!

TGIF! Woke up with a slight headache this morning, seriously thought Im gona get sick for the day but remembering I got a meeting at 11, made me jumped off my bed. Membencikan!

This few days mmg siapkan peanut butter and jelly sandwich and cuppa coffee dalam kereta sbb jalan yg sgt jem, normal time I can reach office is in AN HOUR. Memandangkan jem yg membosankan dan menambahkan stress, baik la breakfast dalam kete. Sgt membencikan!

Lastnite went out with Prabh, Margie, Ila & Dillon at the sportsbar and yakking until 11pm. I don’t feel like workin now. I am so demotivated. Nak kata sbb hari jumaat, tak jugak coz I’ve been having this feeling since Monday!

What I actually wanna do:

1. Get myself a new book. (nak pegi Times pun x sempat) – akan diusahakan hari ini!

2. Watch my DVDs – yg dah beli tapi belum tgk – The Unborn, Punisher 2, Benjamin Button –Hari tu dah penat tgk Changeling separuh jalan je)

3. Watch Confessions of A Shopaholic – me kinda like isla fisher since I saw her in The Wedding Crashers, I think...Her character was like, very naive looking and very sweet yet very spontaneous and adventurous and...notty! hehe – perancangan nya hendak tgk movie ini bersama rakan2 seangkatan –mungkin pada hari selasa depan kerana, hari Isnin, boss saya kata kami (my team) akan menonton The Secret, pada tepat jam 5.30 di dalam board room office sebelum bergerak ke Tamarind Springs for dinner

4. Lepak minum kopi bersama rakan dan menikmati hari jumaat yg indah

5. Apa saja aktiviti asalkan ianya merehatkan – beberapa hari ni asyik x sihat, boss saya kata maybe I’m too stress smp sakit so I better calm myself down (On the other note, I have been experiencing few changes after my surgery. Seumur hidup saya sebelum ni, I hardly had period cramps, mood swings a.k.a sekejap cranky sekejap comel (ooops perasan! heheh) and after the surgery, OMG bila timing dah nak smp, I am so cranky and it shows!!! And before it comes, mmg mcm sakit sana, sakit sini. Oh wait for my next appointment with doc, or maybe he’ ll just say it’s normal.

6. Kan best kalau dapat pegi holiday – make sure enuff food hehe and lepak reading books – yes saya sgt suka kalau dapat lepak baca buku tepi beach! Syioks! Actually no need to go too far or spend so many days pun...as long dapat wind down and with great company – it will surely be fun!

7. Adala sedikit perasaan atau niat nak masak black pepper lamb with lemon for my fam. Tapi mcm perlu siapkan juadah lain juga. Makanya mungkin spaghetti, salad and lamb...whoaaaaaaaaa...nice. esok or Sundayla kot

8. Nak transfer pics from my phone

9. Karaoke –hehehe with great companion. – dah lama sgt x karaoke due to my damaged voice.maka Cuma boleh pergi karaoke dgn rakan yg pergi utk suka2 dan bersuara sumbang juga

10. MY ULTIMATE GOAL : I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! Bangun cuma utk makan dan mandi. Tgk tv dan tidur semula.

Tips utk menjadikan tidur satu journey yg sgt indah dan selesa:

a. tukar dulu bedsheet, pillowcase and quilt cover...pastikan persekitaran adalah bersih dan nyaman (kalau kaki merasakan sesuatu di lantai, x lena tidur nanti)
b. Light on scented candles ...ooowh i love this part
c. Aircond dipasang secukup rasa, langsir ditutup bagi menghalang pencahayaan masuk dan menyilaukan mata anda (kalau sikit je takpa)
d. Kunci pintu agar tiada gangguan. Atau mungkin beritahu ibu anda utk membiarkan anda tidur selama 6 jam.
e. Switch phone mode to silent sekiranya tidak mahu diganggu
f. Ohya! Pakai pakaian yg menbuatkan anda rasa selesa. Kalau xnak pakai pun takpa tapi tertakluk kepada keadaan sekeliling..ngeh ngeh ngeh

Dari tadi x habis2 plan dan berangan. Reality checks sekarang harus buat kerja!
Isk isk cepatla pukul 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enjoy yr weekend peeps!

Oops before that, something nice to check out! dah lama dah baca these descriptions but baru nak letak kat sini. No need to take it seriously but just for the fun of it!

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is cool and somewhat accurate. Then send it to your friends, including the one that sent it to you, so they can find out what tree you fell from, but do not forget to change the subject line to your tree. Find your tree below and see what you are like..

Dec 23 to Jan 01 Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 01 Pine Tree
Sep 02 to Sep 12 Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) Beech Tree

TREES (in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, And attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence ) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, Likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes What life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially in dependent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness ) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility ) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary ) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgm ent and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for fami ly and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind ) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self-esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.


ciao babes!

When I’m down..

My weekend was full of family affairs.Went back 5pm sharp on Friday (I broke my record!!)

Reach home half an hour later, alk a bit, clean a bit before I took my bath and get ready for the Azhar and Adora’s wedding reception. Actually was not feeling well. Eyes were feeling so hot, sore throat and suddenly having back pain, neck pain and ultimately, fever.

Congrats to both Azhar and Adora! Marriage is a wonderful journey, you guys have just started and may everything sail smoothly, Insyaalllah.

Saturday morning woke up at 730 to find nobody at home. Mum and dad left for their functions (early morning wei!) then got myself a cuppa coffee and watch tv (nak goreng burger ramly tapi malas) then I started to clean the house, clean my room and it was 930 when I finished my bath when my sis dropped by.

After I put some colours to my pale face, jeans and t-shirt, Adam was happily pulled my hands and said “mummy, come let’s go jalan” hahahahha this cute boy. I actually was about to go out that time. And he was like “let’s go mummy, come!”

Kesian mamat nih sbb lepas tu dia nangis kena tinggal. Had a wonderful afternoon before I went back home for an hour and get ready to go out again with my parents.

Then we adjourned to the curve to have coffee and dinner. Sunday, woke up late and clearing my laundry bag. Adam came with his momma for breakfast. Then went out with mum and dad again, lunch at Sari Ratu (nasi padang) but I think I like Puti Bungsu Batam (jalan Yap Kwan Seng) better than Sari Ratu...then to San Francisco Coffee for ice mocha, cappuccino and Americano and to ampang for roti bom and mee udang. Veryyyyy nice! Boleh senang2 tambah 2kgs!

Bought few dvds and I finally watch Bride Wars lastnite (giler lembab kan? Hehe)
The storyline was not really unpredictable and I personally liked it. I always love both of them! Can’t wait to go back tonite and watch changeling!

I saw Misha Omar on tv lastnite singing Hanya cinta yg bisa with Dina (original singers were Agnes Monica and Titi DJ) – and the lyric hooked my attention..

Hanya cinta yang bisa menaklukkan dendam

Hanya kasih sayang tulus yang mampu menyentuh

Hanya cinta yang bisa mendamaikan benci

Hanya kasih sayang tulus yang mampu menembus ruang dan waktu

Dahla lately has been feeling melancholy all the way! Isk isk

And this song by NeYo ..-Mad

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking

Nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming

And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,

all that that means is neither of us are listening,

and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)nothing, (crying for)nothing,

When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for)nothing,

it should be nothingto a love like what we got oh baby

I know some times it's gonna rain,

But baby can we make up now

cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)girl

I don't want to go to bed, mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

no I don't want to go to bed mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing

(asking questions like you already know)

hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing

(this ain't the way that love is supposed to go,

whatever happened to working it out?)

We fall into this place where you ain't backing down,

and I ain't backing down,so what the hell do we do now?

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)nothing,

(crying for)nothing...

When we won't let it go for nothing,nothing,

it should be nothingto a love like what we got

oh babyI know some times it's gonna rain,

But baby can we make up now

cause' I can't sleep through the pain girl

I don't want to go to bed mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

no I don't want to go to bed mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

Oh baby this love ain't gone be perfect,)

And just how good it's gonna be

We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright between us before we go to sleep...Baby we're gonna be...

I know some times it's gonna rain,

But baby can we make up now

cause' I can't sleep through the pain

(can't sleep through the pain)girl

I don't want to go to bed mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

no I don't want to go to bed mad at you

and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

And my all time fav song by Babyface..

Reason For Breathing

If I cried like a baby would you change your mind?

If I told you I'm crazy would you come running back to me?

The harder I try to break away, the more I get lost in yesterday

The man that you know is just a shell, living without your life is hell

I turn on the radio just to take the hurt away

Another night and I'm missing you

Girl, it's killing me, wellI don't wanna die tonight,

but I think I might be going down'

Cause the only one I ever cared about is nowhere to be found

I don't wanna close my eyes 'cause I might not see the light of day

I'm almost out of air

You're my reason for breathing

I don't wanna go clubbing, I got no one to dance with me

I don't wanna go shopping, I got no one to spend my money on

Spending my time with one glass of wine

Playing solitaire just to ease my mind

Poured one for you, but I drank that too

Anything to kill the pain of losing you

I turn on the radio just to take the hurt away

Another night and I'm missing you

Girl, it's killing me

So I'm reaching out on this distant line

Hoping deep inside your heart's gonna find a reason

To keep me breathing

But I'm lost in this pain and I don't have much time

I'm so tired of walking this same old line

So I'm taking my pride, gonna throw it aside

Please let me breathe girl,

I'm sorryBaby girl, don't leave me standing here

I'm barely breathing, girl,

I'm running out of airBaby girl, don't leave me standing here

I'm barely breathing, girl, I'm running out of air

hehe jiwang siot! Saya bosan!

tadi saya tgk kalau ada movie yg menarik di pavilion utk ditonton tapi takde pun!

owh lately saya suka lagu Lady Gaga -poker face juga

hehe ciao

When the shower procedures made me laughed big time and a short catch-up on Ila's birthday

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**toothpick's birthday

HOW TO SHOWER - COMPLEXITY VS SIMPLICITY

HOW TO SHOWER LIKE A WOMAN:

Take off clothing and place it in sectioned laundry hamper according to lights and darks.
Walk to bathroom wearing long robe. If you see husband along the way, cover up any exposed areas.
Look at your womanly physique in the mirror -- make mental note to do more sit-ups/leg-lifts, etc. Get in the shower.
Use wash cloth, long loofah, wide loofah and pumice stone.
Wash your hair once with cucumber and sage shampoo with 43 added vitamins.
Wash your hair again to make sure it's clean. Condition your hair with grapefruit mint conditioner.
Wash your face with crushed apricot facial scrub for 10 minutes until red
Wash entire rest of body with ginger nut and jaffa cake body wash.
Rinse conditioner off hair.
Shave armpits and legs.. Rinse off.
Turn off shower Squeegee off all wet surfaces in shower. Spray mold spots with Tilex. Get out of shower. Dry with towel the size of a small country.
Wrap hair in super absorbent towel.
Return to bedroom wearing long robe and towel on head. If you see husband along the way, cover up any exposed areas.

HOW TO SHOWER LIKE A MAN:

Take off clothes while sitting on the edge of the bed and leave them in a pile.
Walk naked to the bathroom.
If you see wife along the way, shake wiener at her making the woo-woo sound. Look at your manly physique in the mirror.
Admire the size of your wiener and scratch your butt.
Get in the shower. Wash your face. Wash your armpits. B
low your nose in your hands and let the water rinse them off. Fart and laugh at how loud it sounds in the shower.
pend majority of time washing privates and surrounding area.
Wash your butt, leaving those coarse butt hairs stuck on the soap.
Wash your hair. Make a Shampoo Mohawk. Pee.
Rinse off and get out of shower. Partially dry off..
Fail to notice the water on floor because curtain was hanging out of tub the whole time.
Admire wiener size in mirror again.
Leave shower curtain open, wet mat on floor, and light and fan on. Return to bedroom with towel around waist.
If you pass wife, pull off towel, shake wiener at her and make the woo-woo sound again.
Throw wet towel on bed.

If there is anyone who did not laugh at the truth behind this, there is something SO very wrong with you. Have a great day...... and woo woo!!!

On the other note, we gave Ila a.k.a toothpick a surprised birthday lunch. The usual boring birthday rituals in office is to sing and cutting cake at 5pm on a person's birthday, so we decided to do something else.

Well, she thought that it was a normal team lunch and tadaaaaaaa, she was surprised! haha

Happy Birthday TOOTHPICK!

When you are living on a fast-paced lane and learning process is continuous

It’s been a whiiiiile since my last entry.AGAIN.

So much into the new year..or should I say we are reaching the end of first quarter of the year? Hehe
Well Alhamdulillah for me, though maybe not everything happens as I wish but God has granted some of my prayers
I went through the cyst removal surgery by end of January. Alhamdulillah I am recovering well. Dah boleh tick my wish list! dah service kereta, tukar tayar, para from ikea and flat screen for my room! niceeeeeeeeeeeee

when I was on my 3 weeks medical leave, it was not totally on leave since I still ran through meetings from home plus getting some documents done. Back to office, phewwwwww strictly no time dah...loads come continuously

But I am happy that I am healthy and kickin again!

Nothing interesting so far (or i forgot em already?) again, im still trying to understand things that is happening around me
Or maybe I like to think about relationship..some people said thinking too much is not good. But end of the day I still think and TRY to understand and put a rationale into it. Sedapkan hati sendiri hehehe

Last few weeks I had been hearing looooootsa confessions from my male friends. Here is something to think..

It is understandable that, other than our spouse/partner, in most cases we do have other person that we are more comfortable to talk to. We can talk about everything. For some reasons, sometimes some issues we are not comfortable to talk to our partner/ spouse. I had experience this and also see this happening for years.

But, of course bottom line and end of the day the one that matters the most is definitely your loved ones/partner/spouse and nothing can change that.

But what happen along the way is, when you don’t control the comfy stage or the admiration level, you might fall for the ‘friend’ that you first assume as the comfy friend that you can share everything. You might find out that he/she is a very lovely person, care about you, full of courage and end of the day you know that he/she understands you best and you understand him/her best! And then the devilish (or maybe I should not say this) part of your mind would be thinking how nice would it be if you are actually end up in a relationship- running life together with that ‘friend’

For those who are married/engaged/serious relationship this would be a major problem. First you will not see this coming as a problem/threat but you would never know the latter part of the "friendship”

But rationally everybody have ‘cool buddies’ and doesn’t matter he/she, doesn’t matter whether you are attached to someone but you can/must have a cool buddy

That is why in my culture, or advisable lifestyle would highly prefer us to only share EVERYTHING with our partner/spouse and not anyone else outside the marriage/relationship plus we need to have big gaps between your partner/spouse and cool buddies

Tapi mcm x best kalau takda geng yg boleh ckp kasar seperti gangster/berlawak keterlaluan/ memuji tapi bila mengutuk pun boleh tahan (secara berdepan ok!) ..bukan nya x boleh di praktikkan dgn pasangan tapi mungkin tidak semua org yg boleh all-out atau selamba badak je depan pasangan. And topic yg saya ckp ni, kalau dibincang bersama suami/isteri/tunang tersayang mesti akan menimbulkan pergaduhan sekiranya berlainan pendapat. But, it will not ends there..Haha fening tak?

And based on my real-life experience, when I was married to him, susah nya la nak communicate, nak ckp susah, tulis surat walaupun duduk serumah – tapi dia tak jawab pun, most of the time berlawan sms je, itu pun kalau dia nak jwb, bila balik rumah dari kerja pun tak bnyk benda nak ckp, kadang hati dah marah, tapi tak lepas

so bila tgk one part of all reasons why we failed, and i think this is the main reason, I honestly admitted our communication flow was very very weak.

But amazingly, when we divorced, the communication between us become a lottttt better....jadila seperti statement di atas yg menyatakan perbualan gangster dan kelakuan selamba badak dan sebagainya...makanya kami boleh je berckp pasal apa pun, tak seperti waktu bersama dulu. After all, he knows me inside out, and vice versa

**though our communication was weak, jokes agak bnyk la jugak
(sbb dia selalu mengejek tahap kependekkan saya, pemakaian saya,berat saya dan cuba sedaya upaya untuk kentut di atas peha saya yg berseluar pendek, dia kata “nak bagi lebam kat peha”)

Well, that is my experience, we became good friends. We shared our stuff, we talked abt our shitty days, what we wana get etc don't know what to say...maybe berkawan lebih baik hehehe

well dats MY experience

When I can hear Dody snores next to me while I am typing this entry

Dody mmg berdengkur at times okay! dia ni kalau tido mmg sepenuh perasaan!

It’s been a while since my last entry –maka saya akan menulis panjang and mendivide nya kepada slot2 kecil
I’ve been enjoying my holidays..waking up late and been trying not to think about work
Managed to catch up with some dear friends, spending quality time with family
Watched few dvds, prepared few meals and desserts
And yesterday when I got a call on work related matter, surprisingly it got my mind hyped up and I guess I will not have Monday blues or hols mood when I get back in office on 5th (hahaha we’ll see!)

ABOUT FORGIVENESS

Saya terdengar satu tip from Dato’ Hj. Fadzillah Kamsah yg berbunyi – to live a calm/open and happy mind, every night before you go to sleep, forgive everyone who have hurt you emotionally, mentally & physically tak kira lah whether secara sengaja atau tidak…maafkan mereka…jadi bersihlah hati anda daripada perasaan marah, sedih, kecewa dan paling utama, grudges.

Saya berpendapat bahawa tip ini sgt bagus!

Just I think say if someone did a horrible thing to you, forgive him/her BUT remember to have borders/limits and be careful with that specific person in the future. Because I believe if the person realized (after a few cases) that you are one forgivable type of person, ada yg akan take advantage and keep on doing those horrible things to you, knowing that you will forgive the person anyway.So, be careful, most important, don’t hold grudges..tak bagus.

TENTANG GADIS SUPERWOMAN & LELAKI

In one of the coffee session, I met this one uncle..very old and wise man I would say
He said something like this “women are greedy, they want to be everything, want to do everything, when a woman gain something, or have something, they want to do more and have more..but still they are just like any ordinary women, they would like to be pampered..especially by their loved ones. And they do have breakdown/depressing moments at times”

Dalam bahasa melayu nya, dia tambah lagi “dia nak semua, nak jadi semua nak buat semua tapi sebenarnya nak jugak bermanja and perempuan tu tetap lah perempuan di mana mereka masih memerlukan lelaki”

I was silently thinking and smiling to him
Deep in my mind, I admitted his statement.but whatever the situation is, I believe LELAKI & PEREMPUAN ADALAH SALING MEMERLUKAN..bukan one party je

nowadays mmg semua perempuan want to be independent. And they want to show that they can do wonders, and we are superwomen! wooohoo
But I don’t really get/understands it (yet) on what it takes (along the way) to be a superwoman (masih perlu mendapatkan pandangan and membuat research lagi & perhaps get my own experience)

Which come to my question..some men like their women to be independent..dimana ciri2 nya adalah seperti (pls take note that this is upon my understanding and observation) :

1. tidak clingy, high tolerance – ada masa to spend together ada masa with other friends –faham bila ada masa2 mmg terlalu busy atau ada komitmen yg lebih penting,
2. sensitive –berperasaan – can sense sekiranya sidia itu memerlukan anda atau sidia memerlukan ruang utk dirinya,and of course tidak cemburu buta
3. having arguments/discussion in a proper way-making sure that the message of the argument is delivered tak tahula secara kasar, jeritan, sindiran, leteran atau cakap baik2 (this depends on the couples preference hehe)
4. dan lain2 nya adalah seperti she can make decision for herself, she can mingle around –pendek kata pandai membawa diri
5. bukan queen control
6. the rest tu biasalah ‘boleh’ memasak, pembersih, rajin mengemas

And some men like their woman who is needy, manja to everyone, perlu melakukan semuanya bersama, kuat merajuk pun takpa and most of the time sidia akan dapat menjadi leader dan dapat membentuk keperibadian gadis tersebut

Bottom line is it depends on the guy himself and the woman as well…apa yg mereka harapkan dari partner masing2
Cuma kadang tu tak faham
Sometimes bila si wanita nih (ececeh wanita siot!hehe) dah memberi komitmen dan amatlah memahami bila sidia tu busy, tidak clingy, dan sgtla bertolak ansur..makanya sidia ni pulak pijak kepala, mengambil kesempatan, melakukan penipuan seterusnya aktif aktiviti ‘luaran’

Dan ada pulak yg complaint “my woman x manja langsung”
Tapi ada pulak yg kata “gosh my gf is so clingyyyyyyyyyy and childish”

One more kalau dah the woman is independent, same wavelength and intellectual semua tu, adakah menjadi tidak seronok?
Habis tu nak yg macam mana???

Back to the conversation I had ..lepas tu uncle tu kata “tapi tak semua perempuan mcm tu”
hmmmm
masih perlu belajar nih
Cuma most of the time I think, if u love someone, u will accept his/her flaws.take him/her as they are…and kalau ada isu2 berbangkit, cuba selesaikan…org Jawa kata work on your issues! (saya ada darah Jawa sikit ok) And have faith that both of you are meant for each other

Cuma kalau dah paling tidak 3-4 yrs of patience plus hundreds of efforts taken pun sidia tu x sedar jugak—DON’T WASTE YR TIME PLS!

**ada kawan saya kata, sometimes men don't know what they want -bleargggh!

WELCOMING NEW YEAR OF 2009

Hehe as usual, everyone will have their share on new year’s resolutions..which can be concluded as being a better person blablabla

I managed to watch ‘The Women’ …by Meg Ryan, Annette Bening, Eva Mendes, Debra Messing & Jada Pinkett Smith

Which made me asked myself..what do I want to do/be?
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

1. better daughter for my parents
2. better Muslim to my God Almighty
3. better employee for my company –mudah mudahan dipermudahkan rezeki dan dilindungi Tuhan – seriously, the current global financial crisis do worries me A LOT
4. get my cyst removal done
5. maintain my current weight
6. save money nak beli hp idaman…woohoo
7. pegi kuching visit Joanna Gilbert
8. save money nak beli plasma tv for my room..phewwwwit!! hehe
9. tukar sportrim kereta kesayangan saya and mungkin get a better seat cover
10. sementara nak save money beli hp baru tu…tukar casing for my homeless N76 tu! Kesian dia
11. nak survey interesting events for 2009.!
12. Cuba mengurangkan aktiviti merokok demi kesihatan
13. Read more books
14. Tukar ‘settings’ ‘rumah’ sumaya
15. Landscape garden rumah saya. Saya juga bercadang nak meng-adjust tembok pagar depan rumah saya bila dah buat landscaping tadi. lepas tu bolehla saya bersantai membaca buku di garden saya yg indah heheheh
16. Saya nak furnish semula our second living room kat rumah tu…biar saya yg menghias mengikut citarasa saya…get another tv and astro cable
17. Beranda kat belakang tu pun biar saya yg set lighting with pokok2 and tempat bersantai juga

18. Saya tgk semula bnyk yg saya nak buat memerlukan savings yg agak bnyk, jadinya saya haruslah menjadi pekerja yg cemerlang di ME. Merancang perbelanjaan saya dan mungkin memikirkan pekerjaan sampingan tapi takde idea kerja apa

Cukup dulu setakat ni kot sbb takde lagi idea tambahan but I am sure the numbers will keep going on hehehe

On another related note…will I meet any interesting gentlemen this year? Yeeeehaaa
Start the New Year, new chapter with positive vibes and spread it to the world around you!

TADI SAYA TGK BERITA

Heard about the accident on New Year’s eve at Jalan Tun Razak heading to Cheras. It happened around 3.30am on January 1st,2009. One car –Satria –drove by a guy and two girls tagged along. It was believed that they lost control of the car and hit one of the signboard. Maybe because of speeding, the girl who was seating on the passenger’s seat next to the driver flew off the car and her head was crashed..mind you when I heard the news in bahasa, they were saying “…kepala mangsa dipercayai pecah and serpihan otaknya ditemui bertaburan di kawasan kejadian. They were just heading home after the new year’s celebration at one of the club.

On the other news I heard there were a few accidents happened at the same time. But this one really grabbed my attention. Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun. The girl was a Malay, 23 yrs-old. Her family was found too heartbreaking on the accident.

Saya yg dgr pun sedih. To everybody out there, please be safe. There’s nothing wrong with celebrating New Year’s however and wherever you choose, but pls take some safety precautions. If you are sleepy, if you are drunk..pls pls think of a solution not to drive back home. Leave the car, take a cab or whatever it is, pls don’t drive. I understand the situation because I do have this issue sometimes..I want to have fun but knowing I have to drive back so I need to consider few things before taking any actions. If you get a friend to drive you back, make sure he/she is fine to drive.

I know the fact that we will never know when it’s going to happen. Despite, at times things like this happens not because of you or your friends but also anybody on the road, but at least, from your side, you have already take the safety precaution.

On another new year’s news, a high class club in Bangkok named Santika was burnt dipercayai disbbkan oleh bunga api. Quite big numbers of tourist were hurt and even a Singaporean was found dead. I went to that club sometime end of 2007..It was a good club I tell you! From the news they were saying Santika will be moved to a new place anyway. Hmmm nothing much to say but it was a good club, very nice settings and the music are way cool and very much up-to-date than clubs in KL. Goodbye Santika!

p/s: lately saya tgk bnyk iklan di tv mengenai amalan gaya hidup sihat. Maka, saya akan cuba sedaya upaya utk mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat seperti iklan tersebut



Signing off,
Syidotz
9.54pm - January 1st, 2009