When he becomes my buah hati..

Buah hati mummy..

I wanna steal some time talking abt this cute guy.

My current buah hati yang sorang ni. He is so adorable that you can fall in love with him at first sight. I can only spend time with him on Saturdays, where we will have a date and spend the day together.

Most of the days, he’s already at his home when I reached my house after work. For the past 2-days, he was still at my house when I got back. You know how it feels when a kid look at you and attached to you? It feels so gooood!!

Not having my own kid, plus haven’t found the love of my life yet, I know how it feels when how tired and stress you are at work, the moment you step in and saw him/her, your world suddenly stops and you gain back all the energy just to love him/her. When you hug him/her, all your sorrows just went off without you realise it.

And this guy, although I didn’t get to spend more time with him, he knows I love him. After my miscarriage at 5 months back in 2006, I have not been close to any babies, kids..Just to stop the thought that how nice it would be if I have my own daughter (Al-Fatihah to Sumaya)..Despite, when my sister first got Adam, I was keeping my distance because it resembles the thought that Sumaya would be the same age as Adam. I know I know its kuasa Tuhan and He knows what’s best for me, I have to let go and redha.

Living my life now, back to square one..although I have to be honest that I do feel lonely sometime, or when I just need a big bear hug each day, at least I have Adam – kena pinjam from my sister hehe

Thanks Adam for being mummy’s cute lil sweetheart!